Everything is Illuminated

Sunday was interesting... please let me elaborate.

I had to open at work at 7am ... I went to leave 5 min before I have to be there (like always)

and my car doesn't start. For the past few days it sounded like it was having a hard time starting.. and then finally this morning it died.  I had to wake up my roommate (she wasn't very happy the sun wasn't even up) and she had to take me to work. You should have seen me trying to jump start a car... I had to call my neighbor to come over and do it. I felt dumb haaaa. But yeah, the problem was... my battery to my car has not been changed since 1997 so it had it coming. At first I thought my car completelyyyy died... then I got scared, cause I cannot afford a new one and I need to drive home next Wednesday (i'm also scared about that). 

As everyone packs up and moves away, it's kinda sad. It's said that my neighbors Ash, Nikki, and Adrienne won't be a walk away. They are moving to a house, which I should be doing, however, I kind of still want an apartment. Ahhhh 

13 days until Chicago.

Rick Danko, Janis Joplin, and Jerry Garcia

hahah

it's all over now baby blue

Me: Hey Alex what you been up to?

Alex: not much i snuck into gradbash last night.

lmao.

it's something unattainable that you can't live without

Everything is connected and everything matters now isn't that cool? :)

:):):):)

:)

Beach!

imagine whirled peace

a tasty suggestionnnnn :9

Cheer up Bret!

My day was prettay good, work was a breeze... I need to buy new work pants for the new publix uniform ugh... school is almost done. :)

annndd im sleepy im going to go to sleep.

I'll just sit and stare at my deep blue walls
Until I can see nothing at all
Only particles, some fast, some slow
All my eyes can see is all I know
But I'm about to give this one more shot
And find it in myself
I'll find it in myself

So i'm stuck here until May 7th because of my job.

However, I am enjoying my friends and school coming to an end.

It's pretty sad that my neighbors are moving to another place and Nima may not come back to Orlando. Oh welll.

There's a spider on my wall and I hate spiders but since this one is the size of a pea I will let it live.

Things are looking up, I go to Chicago soon, I hope Tohm doesn't have to work when I go there.

I'm going to run a mile soon, i'm going to be hurtinggg tomorrow.

pancakes

"I went to denny's and i see the menu and there is this delicious stack of pancakes, so I eat them for a while and they are really good, but then after the third pancake I get sick. I stop going to Denny's but after a while I come back and I see the pancakes and I forget how they make me sick. The cycle continues and I keep going back for more. Thus, relationships are like pancakes." -Alex Oviedo

I think last night was the funniest night ever and Alex's pancake speech had me rolling on the floor hysterically.

this album and this song in particular makes me smile each and every time I play it in my car.

SERIOUSLY

i miss being picked up and swept off my feet.

it makes me feel little and loved. 

if that makes sense?

We get totally caught up in our lives forgetting what has always been important to us.

School, Work, these fickle careers; we get all caught up in them

and oh money, it's all about the money. Why does it put your happiness at stake? 

Why can't we all love in-conditionally, why can't we relive highschool, where we snuck around

we knew it was bad but we had so much fun doing it

I'm speaking indirectly. Not completely directed towards me. God knows I have had my fun. 

I miss being careless and free. Where love and only love can lift you up and bring you down.

What is it with family and financial problems.

Remember when you lived at home and you just wanted to pack up and leave? 

Well, I did that, I don't even live home anymore, i'm in a crappy apartment in orlando and I want to pack up and leave. I'm sick of feeling alone. Work tomorrow at 11am, I work with people who enjoy orlando, how great is that? I just want to get out, maybe it's just Florida all together? I've done all the running I can take.

pitter patter goes my heart

When you really trust someone, you have to be okay with not understanding some things.

i miss you.

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I force myself into bed around 5am. I start to realize a case of insomnia makes you feel lonely 

On better days I can turn to my right and expect to see you there. Well, I wouldn't actually see you... it would always be pitch black in your room. Which was great because seeing kurt cobains cold eye peaking through his stringy long hair scared me, I think I told you that once or twice. My bed is too big for me, i need something next to me... catch my drift?  At night, glow-in-the-dark stars light up on my ceiling. I didn't stick them up there, but I appreciate whoever did.  Star gazing in the comfort of my ... desolation. As the sun comes up around 7ish I start to make shapes out of the popcorn on my ceiling. Those are my clouds I suppose. Since you have moved away I don't get out much anymore, can you tell?