Something I found in my live journal today

it really is a recap, i feel like im not handling this too well. 

just remember the start: 

garden state, the chicago postcard you gave me where you drew me and you making snow angels in the snow, the second day you got back from NewYork in Jan06, dancing and singing to "teenage wasteland" in your car on the way to freddys, feeling secure on an airplane with you, driving down to Gateway in Ft.Laud just to see indie movies, staying after movies to watch the credits and discuss its flaws, the days i would secretly sleep over your house, driving you home from school everyday, driving down to eat those pitas in aventura even though ireally didn't like them they made you happy, when you gave me two kinds of creme brulee for my birthday, everytime we went to grand lux, coming over to watch colbert report and jon stewart every night basically, how proud i was to watch you on stage, when you sang to me at cypress bay idol, the day you got back from london :(:( ( i missed you a lot), the day i got my necklace( i loved it ), going to newyork for the first time with you, when we both shared a revolving door in the subway(haha), 4th of july laying on the beach listening to jon brion on your cellphone, just knowing that i had a <3 next to my name everytime i called, when you looked me in the eye and smile,everytime we fell asleep together, the day you fell in the shower on the shower curtain (i know for you it was embarrasing when i look back it made me smile cause i loved everything about you), my 19th birthday, prom was my last real memory cause we got to dance.